Reflection in a hard time

I haven’t written diary for a long time again. Right after the last post, something happened personally and everything bad suddenly appeared. Now must be a good time to reflect who I am and what I have done and what my value is and so on.

The address of Steve Jobs in the graduation ceremony of Stanford University is quite inspiring for me. It might mean that my life is not coherent, but I need to believe myself or something driving me. I am who I am. I am not anything else. In a bad time, everything looks dark, but in a sense you can see everything clearly. In daily life, I might have wanted not to see what is inconvenient for me, but now I need to face it. I am who I am. I am not anything else. I can have some illusion about myself easily, friends, fun time...but I cannot be anything else but me. I can hide it, but I cannot escape from who I am.